I look around me and it seems to be in the faces of many.
But when I listen, I don’t often hear it.
I hear laughter that often passes for joy.
But it can often be derisive, sarcastic, empty, even joyless.
And when I hear the words of people around me
I don’t often hear true joy.
I think joy would also embody contentment, satisfaction, fulfillment.
How often do I hear those expressions?
Then I look at my thoughts.
There lie pools of darkness I don’t want anyone to know about.
Certainly not large areas of joy, contentment and satisfaction.
When I look deeply, I tend to find dissatisfaction, regret, sadness and grief. STOP
How often is my laughter a screen that hides sadness and not a reflection of a joyful heart?
How often do my words give me away?
Telling the truth of my heart that complains, regrets, doesn’t truly believe
GOD is in control of all the particulars of my life.
Learning to find contentment in Christ in this time of life
Where there seem to be so many “good-byes” is the challenge
I have had during all of my life.
It is not something new to learn.
It is something to continue learning as I walk with GOD.
Trusting Him in ways I didn’t used to trust Him. . .
Because I felt so capable, so competent.
It turns out I wasn’t as competent as I thought I was.
But His grace was with me anyway.
He was working out my salvation in ways I never dreamed.
He was growing me in directions I didn’t want to go.
Thank you Jesus for your patience and longsuffering.
Thank you for your grace that has been plentiful and lavish.
Thank you for the wonderful, joyful life you have given me.
I don’t deserve any of it. . .and that is grace!
I’m joining Fellowship Friday #14 and Five Minute Friday today. The rules for Five Minute Friday are found on the website here.
“not as competent as I thought I was” Yup. Pretty much sums it up around here too. Hard to let go of the control that we thought we had. 🙂
To find joy in the process of letting go…
yes krista. that is something to find joy in for sure…and relief! thanks for stopping by:)
“But His grace was with me anyway.” Love, love, love that!!
welcome stacy:) yes, that undeserved grace is stunning isn’t it?
Thank you for the reminder that joy is also learning to be content in what God has given us.
thanks for stopping by laura. discontent can rob our joy so easily can’t it?
Beautiful! You know what got me, that behind the laughter, there’s not always joy. Such truth in that, and worth pondering. Thank you!
thanks for stopping by sam:) glad you enjoyed the visit.