Many years ago when I was in high school, boarding school, I lived thousands of miles from home. I was in North Carolina and my parents were in Costa Rica. There was no internet or texting. Any phone calls were extremely expensive. It had to be a major emergency for us to call home. Mail was all we had.
Each Sunday evening, our ticket to supper was a letter to home. I never thought of myself as a writer, but I think I learned creative writing back then. My personal belief system was that I thought that as a good christian child, it was my responsibility to not make waves for my parents. It was my job to “be good” and not cause them worry about me so they could go about their jobs of missionary-ing or christian school building or whatever they were doing at the time! (I didn’t say it was correct.) stop
I didn’t write home about bad news or about things I was struggling with. For one thing, it seemed like a waste of time! It would be weeks until I would hear back from home and the need for advice would be over and done with long before I heard back.I didn't write home about bad news or about things I was struggling with. I didn't want my parents to worry. Click To Tweet
Years later, I realized that set a horrible precedent. In fact, it made me sad to think my own children would ever feel that way! That would be terrible. As a parent, I would want to know where they were struggling even if I could “only” pray for them.
Then I thought about how it affected other relationships and especially the one with my heavenly Father. I don’t like to tell him the really bad things about myself either. Of course, I know He knows the ugly truth about me…even better than I do!
But the benefit of saying the truth aloud to Him, is that I can also admit it to myself! Yes, I failed. Yes, I need GOD’s help in this specific area of my life. Or even Yes, I feel overwhelmed in these specific places and I need His help to get out of the overwhelming place! I may not even know the path to take to do it! He does. He can guide me. He will show me. I can be truly honest with Him.But the benefit of saying the truth aloud to Him, is that I can also admit it to myself! Yes, I failed. Click To Tweet
Your areas of trouble with honesty may not be related to mail like mine were. Where are your problems with honesty with GOD?
Let us then with confidence
draw near to the throne of grace,
that we may receive mercy and find grace
to help in time of need.Hebrews 4:16 ESV