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I knew I was the only one

I couldn’t tell a soul

I knew I was the worst mother in the universe

I had a dark secret that plagued me…

I yelled at my children with a rage that came from deep inside!


What could I do?

Over time, I read, I listened, I prayed.

I met more moms at different stages of life

Many admitted problems they had when they raised their children.

I heard solutions.  I lived more of life.

I talked with my pastor husband…of course!


Are you “in Christ“?   Yes, I knew I was.

But many days I didn’t act like it.

As a woman who is “in Christ”

I am not a victim of my past.

I am not a victim of circumstances.



I am not an orphan, but a daughter of the King!

An adopted daughter of the King.

I have access to the Father by prayer.

I have access to others in the Kingdom for help.

I am surrounded by a Church Body.


I can be bold and honest with GOD and others.

I can have courage to love these children GOD has given me…

Even when they push my final EXPLODE button!

I can apologize and give them the grace GOD gave me

I can courageously keep on when my body wants to stop

Or when my throbbing head tells me, “You deserve a break”.  

That might even be true!


I can develop new skills of communication with my husband,

New job redistribution with my husband and children,

I can learn to pause before reacting,

Listen to my husband as he tries to help me.

He knows me well.  He sees things others don’t.

Learning to forgive my “yeller” parent was also powerful!


Most of all, learn to lean more on Jesus

to do a job that is way beyond my skill-set!

He planned it that way.

I need to be aware of how much I need Him to do this job.


Loving, training and raising my children will teach me wisdom.

It will teach me to know and love GOD too.

I will also see GOD change me as He works this out in me:

Turning me from an angry woman to one who is kind and tenderhearted from the inside out.

One who is able to forgive…and admit her need to be forgiven.

It will take my lifetime…walking with Jesus as He works His salvation out in me, by His grace.


Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander

 be put away from you, along with all malice.  

Be kind to one another,

tenderhearted,  forgiving one another,

as God in Christ forgave you. 

Ephesians 4:31-32